all at once...

Ever stood close to the train door…
I never really wanted to till today…
and I don’t think I ever will after today…

This sense of relief…
this sense that it was over…
I felt nothing…
all the things I was scared would happen did not…
it was over…
phew…

Standing by the door…
doing something reckless…
I felt free…
like nothing could hold me back…

Felt me feel numb and yet so alive…
its weird how something / someone
can make you feel
two opposite emotions all at the
same time…