Emergencies...

She walked in and it hit her so hard… the hospital casualty room looked more like a local train platform… her feet slowed her down so that she could take in the sight… her eyes moved across and around her… they were people everywhere… on the benches… on stretchers.. on wheelchairs… on the floor… in so many states of despair… hurt… in pain… anxious…tired… it felt like walking into the saddest place on earth… like a vault that closed in all the sadness of the world… hidden away fro her for so long… and she felt her heart tighten…being poor and sick was a curse…
In the emergency room, she tried to be so brave for the girl she was with… but she could not… it dawned on her that she really should have stayed out… the needle easing into S’s skin… the tightened grip on her hand… her fast heart beat… both their feelings felt like one…they both felt it together…
And then next second she found herself sitting right in the middle of the emergency floor… smack on the floor… just sitting there… she tried to hang in there.. she kept telling herself that she had to… she had to get over this fear… but it was not happening…
Its in the most trying situations that you see people most clearly for all that they are… she was lucky to have two more to add to her list… her greatest take away from this experience was that if you look carefully enough, there is always someone who is watching over you… grippin your hand… pretending they don’t see your fear… giving you the dignity to get through the worse…
She felt lucky to keep finding them in the most unusual situations… she considered herself lucky to be loved…to be healthy…