discovering....

Takes me aback when I realize that they are things that I feel so strongly about… so strongly that it shows on my face… in my expressions… my hands speak volumes more than the words… and the words just take on a life of their own…
And it just flows so steadily… like I’m in front of a mirror… just expressing my deepest thoughts in language… like there is no one else there at that moment… and how they react does not matter anymore…

I’m always taken aback when I see this streak in me… I thought I was a mild kind of person… and its taking some time to recover from the fact that I am not quite like that… isn’t self discovery a lot of fun!!… its like being on an island… me and me… probing… looking for inroads to get deeper… and yet my larger aim is to get back to other people, find a way out of this lonely place, defocus from me… and yet a sense of this is what I’m stuck with… how do I make it the best experience ever… and love it too…