knots...

how would she explain it even to herself… sometimes some feelings just linger on and on… even after there is no reason.. no reason in the world…
you shut a door sometimes, bolt it multiple times, stuff the keyhole, fill the cracks and walk away… feeling the finality and understanding that’s how it should be…
and then sometimes the softest knock on the door is all that is required for you to open it just a bit… maybe unstuff the keyhole and just peep through the other side… determined that anything other than that is just not worth it…
sometimes, you discover that maybe we’re just human… just so tangled in our emotions that it gets all mistly… that its important to move on… important to move on with as much dignity as you can.. so what if some of the nightmares still find a way into your days…

Sometimes it hurts to see another hurt… and sometimes its okay to feel things…
Sometimes its ok to miss being able to tell someone that they will be fine… only to convince yourself…
she can’t stand seeing someone she loves hurt or likely to be hurt… its like a little knot in her heart that just won’t go away till its sorted out… that’s just how it is and nothing can be done to change it…