Moon Within...

Have to…simply have to write about the moon…it has been ‘simply spectacular’…’closest to perfection’… ‘pure’…those were all the messages I got from friends who know how much a sight like this would freak me out in a good way!
SS and i stepped out of the office door and had to hold our breath…our eyes went directly to the moon…it completely dominated the painting that I felt we were about to step into…the giant structures of buildings on either side…the moon framed perfectly between them…a few trees underneath…a couple of lamp posts illuminating the long black tar path that seemed to lead right to the moon…
It felt almost within our reach and we both walked…eyes fixed on it…stumbling forward, completely under its spell…
We had seen the moon the night before and we could not help but compare…today it was closer…larger…within reach but paler and not as pure…
a bit like how I was feeling about myself…been trying to understand why I do the things I do and today I feel a little closer to that answer…like its within my grasp but just escaping my fingers like water…
The moon looked like a hole in a dark sealed cardboard box (that same feeling when my claustrophobia takes hold)…I felt like if I reached it and crossed through, I’d be able to breathe again…if I understood me, I’d be at peace again…
But as we got closer to it, it just seemed more distant, higher, and we could not understand it… maybe trying to get a fix on some issues within, takes you a little further away from you…makes the real you get lost within other people, motives, emotions…I told myself, to let it be…don’t analyze too much…we work in mysterious ways…and me straight from the heart…and there is no logical explanation for what I do…I just do…
Some places can’t be reached…deep within or as far away as the moon…