The Butterfly Moment…

This morning I got up feeling strange…this intense feeling that i‘m so harsh on myself…I can love others so easily but I’m so tough on myself…
So I loved myself… woke up gently…played music that made me smile…let myself hum to it… bath water just right…made a cup of nice tea for after…did everything I would do for someone I loved, for myself…even the morning walk and yoga were in the spirit of this is good for me not something I should do…was good to myself as I got ready… took a little longer ironing my clothes…little longer combing my hair… feeling happy…
Before stepping out, I took one last look in the mirror… coaxed a few wild strands of hair to behave…and then smiled…I’m not beautiful in any conventional way but I’m beautiful… I liked who I saw…and I saw myself for all that I was…no point struggling with my flaws…not right now anyway…
Saw me for silly little me… someone who is on the brink of turning into a butterfly and taking off!... this butterfly thing (yes, yes….i’ll pause as you laugh…) has been something I have felt for so long… always on the verge of something big… wonder if it happens and I don’t get it… cos I’m still waiting for the bigger butterfly moment…
The butterfly moment will be the time in my life when I will feel like I can fly…free of anything that holds me…a little more evolved…a little less unhappy…a little more at peace…a little less ‘them’….a little more ‘me’…
Well… the butterfly moment could be right now…