Open Door...

I made a big big discovery last evening….
After a Saturday spent in blissful solitude…and no human contact at all (unless you include meeting the fruitwala, human contact…),I wanted my Sunday to be drastically different… so come evening and I sit with my door open…floral skirt…flowers in hair…coffee in hand…bare feet…floral incense burning…flowers all around me…a restless breeze…sketch book in hand…ready to capture anything that moves…
looking kinda like a gypsy as Yuv would describe me…kinda lost…kinda alone…kinda happy with myself…kinda carefree…kinda i-don’t-care-what-they-think…kinda totally me… : )
and the most incredible stuff beings to happen…

- I meet a neighbor and find out all about my tree and fall more in love with it…
- Aaji (granma) next door, invites me to a bhajan…
- The crazy big dog who always frightens me with the intensity with which he looks at me and then comes running and jumps on me…came upto me…bent his head and sniffed my hand…a submission of sorts…I think we are now friends!
- The little cat that one lonely evening came into my home and slept next to my leg…the little cat that I looked for in vain…she was passing by…saw me…came to me…lay next to me and let me love her…then she looks straight into my eyes…I look into hers and say ‘its okay cattu…I’m fine…you can go now…’ and she leaves…
- and as I wrote this in my journal, I hear guitar man and my heart skips a beat…oh long story but I have to tell short version now…this incredible guy, walks up and down my lane, playing the guitar…his fav song is ‘tie a yellow ribbon round the old oak tree’…and he sings it hauntingly…and I always find a reason to be outside so I can hear him…he’s always in the dark…and the last time I saw him, he walked right upto me…introduced himself and said something flattering about my eyes…and what did I do?...nothing…I just stood there and heard nothing!...i can’t handle things these sudden things…throws me in a tizzy…and he was gone and my slow brain was just about beginning to register the meeting…idiot girl!...

oh I know most of my friends disapprove of this ‘open door ‘ experiment of mine…they have told me in great gory details what can become of me…but really look at all that happened in a matter of a few hours…one awesome tree story…2 neighbors…a bhajan and dinner invitation…a dog…a cat…(let me add here that I also let in a whole family of blood sucking mosquitoes that kept me awake through the night…and a cricket like creature that made a loud crikety sound thru the night…)…great live music and even a coffee invitation…what more could I ask for?! Really…?!

Open your door to life…and life will find a way to reach you…open yourself to hurt and you’ll find love…it takes a lot to open yourself but that’s that only way to experience life in all its beauty…in all its victories and all its defeats…take the first step and then watch how everything around you will come alive and make sense…
My life seems alive…