painting...

Working on a painting… it’s the most exciting thing ever… I’ve stopped painting at night cos then I just simply cannot sleep!! I get so worked up and jumpy about how it looks with the addition of every little bit of paint! So now I simply have to get up super early to work on it… but gosh it makes me so happy…
Incredible how the simple act of dabbling paint on canvas and watching it shape into something, can give me so much peace… it makes me forget everything and everyone who does not matter… makes me see everything so much more clearly cos very often my mind untangles and the most complex structures of thought look like simple shapes after all that got all muddled up…
Its so important to have something you have in your life that helps you just be and in no way judges you… my art and my music do just that and more… They are as much my basic necessities as food or water… I’m one of the few who knows that and can give them their due respect…Ever painted with an audience? Even better… to hear my mum hug me suddenly to show tell me I’m a genius (not fooling myself into believing that even one tiny bit!!) its one reason I love being home… the positive vibes… this sense that my strengths are my strengths and nothing can belittle or take than away from me…