nightmare...

It’s been the same nightmare for the last 4 nights…

and she get chills as she remember it…
It always her sleeping in her grey baby quilt… waking up and just dashing out of the house… bare foot… mismatched tshirt with blue check pajamas… hair running wild around her… heart pounding… desperately searching for something.. eyes restless…hand holding on to the trees outside to give her support and then running down the lane… cold from the fear…panicking as the lane narrows and narrows till she can barely move ahead… and then she reaches this clearing… beautiful meadow on the side of a river… gushing river… the flowers make her smile but she looks up the river… waiting for something… someone… and she waits and waits… the light it beautiful… early morning.. cloudy and the moon glowing upon her… she waits and then as though something just struck her she runs back… fast…fast…oh feet please take me there fast… I have to reach the door… he will be there…and she runs for her life… pushing back her hair and wiping her eyes of the tears that just won’t stop… and then she reaches her door…it shut and there’s no one there… she’s locked out… too late to go back to the river… too late to get into her world… just out there barefoot…mismatched…crazed… like she doesn’t belong anywhere… like she lost both her worlds… all that she has left is her…

Each night, it’s the same… nothing changes except the increasing sense of fear…Scared to go to sleep…cos its too real…she knows what to expect and tries to change it every night but it does not change… its out of her control… so she’d rather not sleep…

Some nightmare you live through in reality…some nightmares you imagine… beware of those that combine the worse of both…